Just feels like my anxiety is spiking

The job hunt is stalling out, the position I was “preferred” for still hasn’t opened. I’ve applied to other places.

My mom has been skulking about since her last meltdown the other night and I’m just kinda

Idk I feel like an exposed nerve

IRS shit is still in limbo, our electric bill is about to spike for the next like two and a half months because HVAC usage in the desert. I’m doing everything I possibly can to stem the cost of living but it’s...not great. Been putting more on credit than I am comfortable with

Could really just use another win that would make the palpable tension in the air just dissipate a bit

A callback for a job, literally anything at this point. I want to stop struggling so much

today is just... rough man all over the place

i wish i could help more

It’s cool, I’m just feeling the stress

Trying to treat myself kindly but also fighting off the guilt when I do spend money on myself as a treat

It’s a struggle

I’m not spiraling I’m just like

A fat bundle of anxieties right now

I’m like one of those little dogs that shakes simply because they exist but I’m 6’3” and the size of a mountain

I’m like a living smear frame

fucking hate those days

it SUUUUUUUUUCKS

like ffs brain pick a thing to be upset about so we can get on with it already

my brain has chosen EVERYTHING

you're still good

waiting for callbacks is soooo rough

It sucks because the position I interviewed super well for fucking loved me and then they

Closed the position

Because end of fiscal year

And they haven’t reopened it. And there’s other positions in the same business that just haven’t been listed yet??? I know all of this because my friend who got me the interviews has been keeping me updated

And I spoke to the recruiter who apparently has me as a “priority hire”

Which is great but also

“If the position opens up again”

So like hey maybe if I’m a priority hire can you just slide me into the DMs of these other positions? Please??

job hunting is so rough, especially when you've got someone like "yeah we love you" but they're not........doing anything

Goddamn fiscal year always making shit difficult.