I didn't realize how deep seated the trauma was until I found myself getting minorly anxious about thinking of my partner seeing me interact with other RPers in a public space

Like ugh come on dude pull yourself together they're not like that holy shit

/bites the anxiety brain

that's a scary feeling tho... i get u

I'm so sorry ya have to go through that bud. Anxiety is an ass like that

Yeah, it was BAD the last time. And I've been getting chummy with a bunch of Twitter RP accounts (same disco people, we've been talking oocly too) and I feel that anxiety spike if I interact publicly with the one Vox I picked up there like NO They're not gonna accuse you of cheating just because you're getting acquainted with new people.

ugh thats the worst 8 (

They were really bad in the end. Got super jealous, threatened SH when I even hinted at breaking up..

I'm so sorry D8

This one though, this one's a keeper. Like I know they won't get on my case and they'd talk to me about it if they thought I was crossing the line without letting them know.

That is. Man, you should have never had to go through that. I'm sorry that happened to you at all.

Like was it an RP partner that made you feel like shit or a RL person? Cause I will stab a whole bitch

theavarice: better place now, thank you.. I just didn't think they'd go off the rails like that

GoddessOfSugar: RP partner I was dating at the time so y e a h. Messy.

Direct me where to stab -3-

You know I will stab a hoe IDGAF i'm ride or die

Seriously, where does the stab line start? I’m so sorry you had to deal with that shit, people like that are pure garbage

It's cool guys... water under the bridge. I hold no stabby feelings now and I'm in a way better place. I just didn't realize there were still a few pieces that needed fixing.

IfIHadHeart: <3 yeah, I know you're ride or die... you saw me through the whole thing

wah what a shitty thing to handshake emoji about, but ive been in that same spot. it blows, but over time ive gotten....better about it, even if i also still sometimes get those anxiety peaks so I Get It

glad youre with a partner thats way better than that now

ah man sucks you had to experience it too... but yeah, the anxiety spikes are real. Situation's way better now like... it's kind of an open V so my partner wouldn't get mad if I ever flirted with anyone. They just want to be informed first so even that's a nice cushion..

oh nice, glad that works for you!

yeah, it's not really an option I would take very often half because I'm ace AF especially when involved with someone already but knowing that cushion is there to reassure me we won't have another THAT

i was also in a similar position.. which is why i get nervy even though i'm v happily polya now lmao
but it's always nice to celebrate being in a better configuration
eventually the anxiety will ease off more

10778438: did my best

IfIHadHeart: you have no idea how grateful I am that you stayed

I wouldn't abandon you. you're literally stuck with me

This is why we got this weird perma-contract on our souls, kitty.

10778438: Pretty much and I'm okay with that lil jackalope