As many of you know Im he primary caretaker of my disabled brother and elderly mom.
and im pretty sure caregiving with the emotinal labor involved certainly had something to do with the massive amount of burnout ive been dealing with.
plus calling to endless beaurocratic red tape, being its own beast
handling all financials, getting groceries cooking, and somewhere between all that trying to start my busness with barely any funding
so ive been tired in pain and anxious for months
and insomnia to boot on top of it.
which doesnt help in the getting things done and in order aspect of things
plus getting the studio clean and things set up so i have a nice place to work
and of course first thing in the morning mom dumped all her expectations on me like 5 or 6 different things at once
without asking how im doing or feeling or anything
and surprisingly my brother defended me
but this led to an arguement between them and im just like here
i really want my mom to find therapy, or something to help her anxiety
but finding a bengali speaking therapist is gonna be rough, i found one for myself after like 10 years in therapy hell
but yea if ive been absent from here its big reason why
the emotional labor and cooling meltdowns and what not
plus side i finally got an appt with thier social worker
so i can atleast be paid for my efforts
and have more to put into my business and house things
ive be3en calling for 3 months
it was a hassle to go through several agencies
that is just so hard ani, i'm so sorry you're going through this
it is what it is. Sadly. My mom is south asian so she doesnt see my labour as labour
its just what a dutiful eldest daughter should do.
but in good news im saving up and getting six musical tickets when i go to ny for my niblings birth since its around my wife and my anneversary
and we got a hotel by the beach
Im sorry. This is a lot to deal with
i want to relax and not worry
thanks, sadly its been stuff ive been dealing with more or less for a long while, since dad passed.
im fine with the work i wish i was just appreciated for it
my wife is a godsend for being as sweet and understanding as she is
im gonna ask if the social worker knows any programs so she can be out a bit
ok bro and me went on a few errands
we tookm zelda and it was nice
its 65 degrees and im just sweating.
im really weak to hot weather
all the more reason to move north
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You're doing so good dear. I'm so proud of you. Rest up and build your strength lots, <3
Thank you everyone. It means a lot