work was nuts. i can't believe i actually finished all my shit, every other time i've had this aisle assignment with a load of this size i've needed help to finish

so that feels pretty great but also i am so exhausted LMFAO

i need to do a bit of bday shopping and shower before my partner comes over on their lunch break but god... fucking eepy

i also did not get around to answering all the messages i wanted to ytd because i felt like garbage. i also wanted to dye my hair yesterday and did not do it for the same reason

i am biting and clawing executive function bit by bit out of the depression hole

happy birthday cee!!!

AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU CLAIRE!!!

Happy Birthday I hope you have an amazing day!

happy birthday!!

BIRTHDAY BUDDIES??? HAPPY BIRTHDAY CEE

I think we figured that out last year but STILL

SO VERY BELATEDLY THANK YOU SO MUCH FRIENDS

sorry I've been MIA here I have had a lot going on socially and emotionally

I have Valentine's Day plans with my partner but they have been complicated a bit by stuff that has frustrated me quite a lot and I'm cranky about it lol

and I have work tonight and tmw because inventory is tomorrow so I'm gonna be in hell

and then shared bday stuff over the weekend... I am excited for it and it will be fun in the end but I've been feeling a bit like it's a party for my roommate more than for the actual bday people so . mixed feelings

very tired LOL

emotional state has continued to be absolute ass despite my best efforts to let things go and just enjoy the weekend i just love feeling like my feelings don't matter,,,

sometimes you sleep for 21.5 hours in a 24-hour period because you spent the whole week sleeping poorly and being in emotional turmoil and needed a hard reset

i feel like hell, that is all

date night w my partner, which is unfortunately being plagued with anxiety, but hopefully that will settle

god I don't want to go to work tonight

tummy upsetti... i need to pick up more crackers

not sure if it is something i consumed or anxiety

or both

mmmmmm more un-fun conversations I need to have today ughhggh

started feeling inexplicably super ill as soon as I got to work and it made my already stressful shift much much harder

fridays are usually easy bc the load is light but. I ended up working four different aisles after having my assignment changed four times, including an aisle I've never done before

I crave expiration

need a pusheen snuggle tbh

i feel about 2% less horrible after laying in bed snoozing for some more hours but I'm also laying in bed not doing anything... concerned for when I stand up

i'm pusheen snuggling u in spirit... we are slothing together

yeah you seem like you have it really rough... idk i'm in the same spot and i don't meant to make this About Me or anything but u no. when you're just that emotionally and mentally exhausted from your job and things outside of it, it truly drains you.

life does not exist unless it has to

yeah one of my friend suggested Stress™ as a potential cause for my mysterious agues yesterday and i'd buy it tbh. i'm sorry you've been in the same boat

i'm feeling a bit better today but not 100%... i'm gonna see how i feel around a quarter til 9 and then decide if i need to call out of work

i don't want to but if i take a turn for the worse again there is no way i will be able to heft things around the way i need to

i lost track of time and it's outside of the callout window but i think i feel okay enough for a light sunday load... whew

tummy is still kinda rough but i can move my body without wanting to die LMFAO and still no fever...

successfully survived work

i don't feel nearly as bad as i did fri/sat but i certainly do not feel good and working around my fucked up elbow was so hard LMFAO

depression haze hitting me incredibly bad rn

woke up at quarter til 7 thinking it was PM instead of AM and had a very confusing and unsettling 10min about it and then I had the absolute worst nightmares about travelling all morning... I'm so tired LMFAO

anxiety so bad ough

i think... i need to go out alone for some cee time soon... i feel so trapped in this house and environment but there has not been a good alignment of energy levels + agreeable weather + lack of other obligations

wish i could just sit in a coffee shop but my covid-related anxiety is still way too high

or the library. i like holing up to sketch at the library

i just gotta get the fuck out of here soon and reset my brain a little lol

i miss my weekly Post-Therapy Decompression Time at the tea shop...

don't want to go back to work, what else is new

my neck is also fucked up again from ? fucking SLEEPING i guess so not super looking forward to that

oh my god. neck could you please

I'm sorry that everything has you feeling so down lately cee

there is nothing like stress to make the body feel Worse in an already bad state

I really feel you on the neck thing though. that happened to me a couple times this past november and it was so annoying every time. me @ sleep YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE ON MY SIDE AND FIX THIS NOT MAKE IT WORSE!!

thank you... it's just been a real shit month which is a shame bc i usually look forward to february

but yeah i feel like more often than not nowadays i've got some kind of bodily fucky-wucky going on that makes normal locomotion difficult LMFAO

oh my god work was hell tonight

FULL runners of endcap and new stuff that I had to sort out from the shit that would actually fit on my shelves... did not end up getting to candy backstock at all

I was beating myself up over being too tired to shower yesterday but now I'm glad I didn't, I feel like I need to be hosed down after this shift ☠️☠️☠️

had a really fun hours-long anxiety adventure over what turned out to be nothing instead of showering right after work so that was fun gonna shower now but UGH