kinda pressured, my friend's topping all the exams.

though I'm not comparing my scores with him. and I'm not envious. In fact, I'm still happy because I'm still able to have a grade

with only a small difference to his... but I don't know how long this "luck" will go on...

and I really need to be determined... but for what? Self-fulfillment? To be the best? Or just for the scholarship?

he's a friend anyway but I somehow feel bitter and it pressures me...

though there's also a third option and that is to be the best and the be one of the best.

I really need to know my loyalties and priorities in life .

advance happy birthday to that friend anyway

oow that's deep..indeed a pressure but for me it's just a matter of being the best you can be..no comparing..no hang ups